A Brand New Day

Here is an email I wrote Lisa Natoli from www.gorgeousforgod.com. This is something I would share in my blog as well, (really I share most things in my blog), so rather than writing it twice I'll just post the email.

What a day and a half! I've gone from light to darkness and to light in a matter of about 24 hours. I just had to tell you about it.

Last night, for no particular reason, I was in love. I just had this feeling of new love. Like when you fall in love with someone and your on cloud 9. The best way to describe it was a lovely peacefulness. Then this morning, for no particular reason, I woke up feeling pretty apathetic. Didn't have a reason to get out of bed. When I did get up, I found out one of Fiance's 20 something cousins died in his sleep. He was fine, then dead. Very puzzling. Later we were told it was a massive heart attack. And then to add to this horrible start to the day Fiance's brother was admitted to the hospital. They finally figured out what was wrong and he will be okay.

I was really trying to see things differently. I picked up A Course in Miracles, but it was just words. I didn't feel any better. I was in a major funk. I read your blog hoping it would help me. And it did! You have a way of putting things into perspective. For Lesson 57 you said that things may get uncomfortable because new emotional responses might be coming to the surface. You quoted chapter 1 which says "Lack implies that you would be better off in a state different than the one you are in." And then you said, "All that is needed is acceptance of where you are RIGHT NOW. Once acceptance is established, the Power of God will lift and transport you to wherever you need to go." So, instead of repressing it and remaining calm and cool on the exterior, I just let the unpleasant feelings and emotions rise to the surface and just let it be.

I realized when I read your blog and observed my thoughts and feelings that I'm always thinking that I should be where I'm not. That I should be better. That I shouldn't be upset or in a bad mood and I wonder what is wrong with me. So, I just accepted where I was in the moment. I stopped beating myself up.

Later I thought, what am I to do with all this sickness and death going on around me? I wondered why this was all happening at once. I was trying to realize that sickness and death is all an illusion, but I couldn't wrap my mind around it. I was feeling sad for my Fiance's family and his uncle and his cousin's brother. I felt for my Fiance and his Mom worrying about his brother in the hospital. Sickness and death is very real when your so close to it and immersed within it.

I was thinking, I just don't get it. That this world is an illusion. It was an interesting idea to think of, but it wasn't my reality. I speak in past tense here because it has become clear to me and I am totally FREAKING OUT, but in a good way.

Earlier today while I was doing laundry, to past the time I decided to go to the Miracle Times website. I come across the Master Teacher videos and decided to watch the one on Resurrection. There wasn't a specific thing that he said in the video that really made the idea of the world being an illusion make sense to me. The video was quite an experience. The Master Teacher might as well have been sitting face to face with me speaking directly to me because that is exactly how I felt. I could see the pieces of the puzzle coming together to finally reveal the truth to me.

He was talking about the book A New Earth in the beginning and Tolle's experience of going into a void but the void was within him. Then the Master Teacher talking about being resurrected and about losing your body for a moment. I thought, I've been resurrected! That whole experience on my 22nd birthday, when I fell within myself and into a void and was told really everything but can only remember the essence of the experience. After that experience my life totally changed. I had new friends in a new environment and new opportunities. My physical appearance even changed. It was like a resurrection. And I've had more than one resurrection. It's when I decide to choose something different and my whole world changes. I realized that I can just choose to see differently and to be different. That really this physical form and physical world is not solid at all but very fluid. I really, really understand now that all I have to do is change my mind to change the world. The world is just a light projection of ourselves, a hologram.

Have you ever heard of the online virtual world called Second Life? You go into this virtual world on the internet, create your body, your identity and give yourself a name. Then you can purchase land and build whatever you want. You can make business contacts and go to lectures and meetings with multiple people. You can buy and sell physical objects and services as well as virtual things.

That is what this world, the universe, we live in is like! We created this fun virtual world to play in but for some reason became so engrossed in playing the game and creating the game that we started to think we were the game and then everything went to hell. It's like the Matrix too. All we need to do is press the delete button or pull the plug.

I just want to hold on to this awareness. I don't want to forget, that all I need to do is ask or just change my mind. I can escape from the world I see! I believe it!!!

It was funny what came into my mind when I had this awareness. I thought of the movie Vanilla Sky when Tom Cruise's character realizes he's just been dreaming and nothing he had been experiencing was real and he runs down the hall yelling, "TECH SUPPORT!!!!, It's a NIGHTMARE!!!" I can totally relate.

What a breath of fresh air this awareness is! I just had to tell you about it. Thank you for helping me accept myself for who I am and where I am.

Love,
CC

The other thing that I'm learning is that as long as people still believe the illusion of this world is reality, or in other words, as long as people believe this physical universe is their true home, we can not escape from the world of illusion entirely.

Our minds are connected, are one with each other and with God, and we can't be completely in two places at once. We can become enlightened individually (knowing are oneness with God) but we will still be tied to this world, because we are connected to are brother's who are still entrapped in this world. But I think the more people who free their minds from the bondage of the physical world, the faster humanity will progress.

Anytime I doubt this is possible, I remember, if God is perfect and love and he created us in his likeness than we must be perfect and love. It's all about remembering who I really am as God created me. Not who I am as I created myself. It's about meeting myself again and knowing myself.

In the Introduction of A Course in Miracles it says, "The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love, for that is beyond what can be taught. It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love's presence, which is your natural inheritance. The opposite of love is fear, but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite."

Our blocks to the awareness of love's presence is the illusion of this world and our own perceptions of it. We see sickness, death, hunger, violence, war and hatred all around us so no wonder we are not aware of love's presence. However, if we can remove the perception that these horrible things make up our existence and who we are, then love, which is our true existence will reveal itself.

This world of pain and suffering is not "it" for us. Bodies can die and can be hurt, but we live on. Our spirit continues to exist for eternity. We exist within the mind of God. When that is realized the world of pain will cease to exist.

Jesus came to Earth in a body 2,000 years ago to tell us this. The thing is though, he is still here. His body died 2,000 years ago, but he was resurrected. He is here to help us anytime we call on him and ask.

So, everybody say it with me now, "TECH SUPPORT, IT'S A NIGHTMARE!!!" (From the movie Vanilla Sky, I've seen it like a gazillion times). Ha, ha, ha!