Get Your Mind Right!

It's interesting that yesterday I wrote that one of the fears I thought was holding me back from, I guess I would call it, spiritual success is the fear of being vulnerable because today I read in "A Course in Miracles" a section about feeling vulnerable. This is what it said, "As long as your sense of vulnerability persists, you should not attempt to perform miracles." So, I thought, "I need to get my mind right." But I wondered how am I supposed to go about doing this. My mind hasn't been right my whole life. Where do I begin?

Further down the page I read, " I have already said that miracles are expressions of miracle-mindedness, and miracle-mindedness means right-mindedness. The right-minded neither exalt nor depreciate the mind of the miracle worker or the miracle receiver. However, as a correction, the miracle need not await the right-mindedness of the receiver. In fact, its purpose is to restore him to his right mind. It is essential, however, that the miracle worker be in his right mind, however briefly, or he will be unable to re-establish right-mindedness in someone else." What I need then is a miracle. Rather than asking what miracles I should perform, I should be asking for a miracle to restore my mind to rightness. I'm not sure what that entails, but what do I have to lose by asking.

I was still thinking at this point though, what can I do to begin the healing of my mind. But, lo and behold, at the end of the section I was reading for the day, it told me what I could do. "Your can do much on behalf of your own healing and that of others if, in a situation calling for help, you think of it this way:

I am here only to be truly helpful.
I am here to represent Him Who sent me.
I do not have to worry about what to say or what
to do, because He Who sent me will direct me.
I am content to be wherever He wishes, knowing
He goes there with me.
I will be healed as I let Him teach me to heal."

I'm going to have to write that down in my planner or maybe memorize it. I can already think of many situations that this prayer or affirmation will be helpful in. Especially at work when things get so chaotic, the kids are acting crazy and I forget why I'm there to begin with. I'm also tutoring a little girl with special needs. She has bad days sometimes, like yesterday was probably the worst. The next time she is having a bad day, rather than thinking I don't know what to do or I would rather go home now, I can silently recite this affirmation. I really think this will help to remind me why I chose to work with children and especially special needs children. The choice came from a pure desire to help and I genuinely feel that I am doing God's work.